Jill over at Scary Mommy is having a contest to find other scary mommies. Am I a scary mommy? Well I am older than most of you so I am sure I have made the most mistakes. I have yelled, I have cried, I have threatened. I have shaken my finger and spanked a few bottoms. But I have also loved unconditionally and forgiven all teenage words and deeds as well as kissed a million boo boos. I am not only a scary mommy, I am a scary grandma too. I wrote this poem about my 4 kids a while back but I am going to enter it into the contest because I believe it says it best.
J.T.E.C. With Love
My child… My friend… My nemesis
The love of my life
The ache in my soul
No one else can cut so deep or cause me such sorrow
No one else can make me doubt myself so completely
But no one else can touch my heart with such joy
Moments of such sweetness
Memories of times so cherished
Often overshadowed by despair
We remember it all, good and bad
Though no one remembers it the same
Time has softened the rough edges for some
But magnified the imperfections for others
Dysfunction is a word too often used
While forgiveness is hardly ever heard
Still so much to discover, about ourselves and each other
4 times the stubbornness
4 times the disagreements
4 times the hope
4 times the love
My child… My friend… My nemesis.
13 Comments
October 21, 2009 at 2:32 am
LOVE these lines:
“We remember it all, good and bad
Though no one remembers it the same.”
So true.
October 21, 2009 at 3:56 am
What a beautiful poem… I am going to have to bookmark it and send it over to my mom!
Popping by from Jill’s : )
October 21, 2009 at 4:36 am
I just adored that– you totally summed it all up! And quite beautifully!!
October 21, 2009 at 5:44 am
I agree with ck: Those two lines are the most thoughtful and honest words I’ve read in a while.
October 21, 2009 at 5:58 am
I think everyone’s got a little scary mom inside of them…
October 21, 2009 at 6:37 am
I have tears in my eyes, because this is me.
I am so glad to know I am not alone.
October 21, 2009 at 7:12 am
This is so powerful, and so true.
October 21, 2009 at 8:48 am
So raw, so beautiful – at the same time. Wonderful poem. I’m speechless!
October 21, 2009 at 10:46 am
You win. Hands down.
October 22, 2009 at 5:13 pm
Hey, just giving you a head’s up–I’m sending some readers your way this weekend! :)
October 22, 2009 at 9:58 pm
That was an awesome poem!
I need a signed copy. ;-)
October 22, 2009 at 10:17 pm
This is quite poignant! Lovely of you to share this, R. Thank you!
October 24, 2009 at 5:22 pm
So so beautiful!